Rants...

I hate being the only one trying save a friendship when the other person is showing no signs of being self-aware of the people around him, being considerate of them and asking how they are for a change, starting the conversation first, or wanting to just talk and hang out. I am always the one having to do something to keep it alive. I am tempted to just shut up and ignore him for a while and then wait and see if he actually cares to respond. It seems like he won't talk to me unless it is about him or something he is into.

I know I have ranted about this before, but it keeps bugging me and it is still going on. I am kind of glad we aren't together anymore as a couple, because I knew this was the type of person he was and he shown no signs of improvement and still hasn't. So it is kind of like I dodge a bullet. I wish I had someone to help me with this and offer some sort of advice, otherwise I may do something drastic and just confront him about it which may stir up negativity and arguing.

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Being deployed somewhere is not always a sure thing. Even if they say you will be deployed somewhere, you might not even get that far or along that path. So all of your hard work of learning the language and culture would all be for nought. And furthermore, why would you want to go to Korea? Do you know the demographics, the religion (which less than 1.7% is other aside from the main ones of Buddhism, Catholic, and Christianity) which may lead up to there being no Wicca or Pagan stores in your area you may be deported to. There's also the fact that you are a foreigner and despite your studying, people are going to still see you as a foreigner. 99% of the populations are Korean, very few are of another race and if so, they are simply tourists, not people who live there for a certain of years or forever. There's a lot more research involved than you have yet to consider and you shouldn't just walk into a new country without first understanding it all and not just going there because it is some sort of vacation or adventure, it will be a lifestyle whether for a few months, years, or a lifetime. You will have to basically conform to their rules, society, and lifestyle in order to fit in. You can't be the ignorant tourist who just happen to upon on the place and think because you did a little studying, you could get by with ease and that everyone will accept you. You thought the people in America were ignorant and bias, just wait. All nationalities and countries are the same in their own form. They may not understand you or your way of life, your religion, or your poor usage of the language. It takes years before you could master a language, even linguists study for that long. You won't fully understand their way of life or language within a few months to a year, it takes a lot longer than that to fully blend in or to study abroad. It is not child's play or a vacation you are setting your life on, it's a new lifestyle you have to conform to in order to fit in otherwise something may happen that you don't expect and you will be begging to come home. Also watch what you say and don't bash the President whether publicly or on the internet, the government will censor it on the web and you won't be able to view much porn or gay and lesbian supported sites. It may come to pass that some sites you use daily may even be blocked like DA, Blogger, Tumblr, Facebook. It may be a democracy but it is still an asian country where some places may not be suitable for all ages and whatever you draw, which for the mass majority of it is porn and nudity, maybe keep you from really doing much with it or posting it anywhere online. It is not like the freedoms you have now in America. So if you want to face that, then go ahead but you have a much better chance being deported somewhere else like Sweden if that is what you are after.

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Another one is the fact I hate it when people say they are "Back from the Dead" on their website but they rarely do anything on there like update further for post much of anything. All I have to say is liar liar pants on fire. Don't make promises you can't keep...