Hello Again!

Been a while. I guess I should update this blog as well.

I have been super busy with artwork, school, summer school, fan fiction, writing, tumblr, kevedd fandom. Just busy overall. I have been having a few minor tiffs with a few friends and I am getting tired of them.

On one hand, they are immature. They get on me for calling them that that you can't define a certain action or characteristic of a person and call it immature. However, I am just disappointed in their lack of maturity. That they are not responsible, self-aware, or take priorities seriously. That is what I mean when I consider them immature. I am tired of always having to be the adult in the room when they are around. They are always complaining about themselves or other people and I am sick of it. They find any good opportunity to badmouth random strangers they just met without first getting to know them. They are critical and judgmental and don't know how to control their potty-mouths. They are still living like they are 8-years-old. Only caring about cosplay, anime conventions, stupid anime, and not trying to be adults. One in particular, refuses to accept that sex is a part of life, part of relationships and does happen. That just because someone is interested in it, does not make them perverted or a bad person like they seem to think so. That they are too good and pure because they haven't fucked up or gotten fucked yet. It is fine to be celibate if that is your preference but don't assume that sex isn't out there and is probably a part of a good foundation for a relationship. Real or in anime. You may like the cutesy side to relationships but odds are, if they are canon or fandom, sex is there. So don't think that it isn't. You act like sex is gross, people who like sex or are into hardcore stuff are bad people or wrong for liking what they like. I say, get over it. Your lifestyle and opinions don't affect the preferences of others, so don't act all high and mighty like you are judging them for liking something you don't understand or don't particularly like.

I like sex, I like hardcore yaoi, shota, loli whatever. I am hardcore into it and I look it up and porn constantly. I am an active person who enjoys the pleasure that comes with sex and the romance of wanting to be with someone in all ways. I like it when it takes couples in yaoi manga a while till they accept one another in that way and engage in sex when they are ready or they truly feel like they love each other. It isn't sex at that point, it is making love. Something you will never understand because you think love is just about hugs, sunshine, and friendship. It has many shapes and forms, passionately and physically are a few others as well.

Another thing, I don't like how you are so critical of other people's art. It is fine if it is your style of choice but for others it is. Especially yaoi manga writers, they have a style and they are getting money for it. What about you? Can you honestly say your style could make it big and become great sellers? Who cares if the anatomy is off by a hair? It should not change your opinion of the story. Quit laughing at the artwork because you find flaws in everyone but yourself. You have no room to judge. They understand more realistic ideals in artwork, but lack the fundamental skill for making it proportionate. However, if they improve, then good for them. They understand they have along way to go and with each new manga or story they create, it gets better.

You do realize that most manga-ka have a team helping them draw and outline their work? That it is a process that many different artists are part of. There is the writer/artist then there is team of artists next to them helping them with certain areas that they may not understand how to do themselves. Then there are the editors who edit their rough drafts and help them with the text style. The entire manga is draw before the text is even added in. So don't blame the artist for something that might be a group effort. Not everyone understands photoshop and furthermore, who cares if the anatomy is off? So is Luffy's. His arms can extend miles because it is his power. But do you laugh at him for what he can do despite the plot? Don't judge something before first understanding it. That is ignorant and immature.

I keep ranting over and over about this, but it just really gets to me that you can stoop this low without showing a shred of humility. I need a serious break from you. I am already deciding not to see you for your birthday this month and yes part of my excuse is because I have an online class to handle. Also don't ask me to do shit with you simply because the idea comes up. I probably will say no. Besides, do you even care what goes on in my life? You never seem interested. I sit there and listen to you, eyes straight on you listening to the words coming out of your mouth but if I can't generate the same level of energy with you or tell a story right, you look away and do something else like you are bored. Really? So what I say bores you? And when I try to get your attention, you just sit there and ignore me like my presence has no meaning in your life. Some friend you are. Act like you care. Stop being so blunt all the time and so evasive. Stop judging me because of your opinions, stop treating me like I'm the immature one. Stop making it seem like no else around you matters. GROW. THE. FUCK. UP! This is why I call you immature. You don't act like an adult let alone a friend worthy of my attention. I always have reasons for why I dump my friends. Don't make me dump you like I did some of my other friends. I don't need this bullshit so grow up and stop acting like a little brat. You act as if you'll have panic attack simply because you are afraid to shine in public, afraid to go above and beyond in life, afraid to fuck up for once and that it will ruin your entire life if you do. Seriously. Just stop already.

I am going to go back to drawing, playing mine craft, reading my online textbook, drink some water, and continue to ignore you. Until you grow up, don't call me until then.